Around us

*Warning: Long entry ahead.

Those who might've followed my blog before this will know I used to write entries that are as long as newspaper read outs. And if you've noticed on this blog entries are kept to a bare minimum. Not that I'm no longer able to write that much but more like the lack of will to do it.

Things around me have been rather hectic and chaotic to a point that I have been losing my sense of direction more than once. Yet does it happen to everyone? No, I can still drive to my destinations quite fine but yet I feel so lacking in the things I used to enjoy so much.

I love food. Enjoy the sensation of soothing my cravings, by nailing my jaw deep into the luscious meat that is so succulent and tasty. Sniffing the aroma of the dish served before me always makes me tingle with joy. Frozen in waiting for the things to come. Before I let loose my gnawing teeth at the things that lie before me. The chant "Food, food, glorious food" has never detailed me so well.

I love tech. An IT freak would've labeled me so well. The ability to cram every ounce of technology into a single handheld device would make me glee with joy. Having my computer staying at the edge of technology(or near it) seemed to be the top-notch priority when I'm sitting in front of it. Dismantling and reassembling new parts into it would fill up my time. Camera's with millions of pixels? "Bring it on" I say.

I love travel. I would take the sunday I have and drive somewhere. To another nearby town for lunch. Into the country roads and enjoy the sensation of the wheel. The sound of tires scrubbing whenever I take the dive deep into apex of a corner, the roar of the engine when it tries to rev to the limits that was bestowed upon it excites me so.

And yet, those are the exact things that I've come to do less and less as days pass. Gone were the days when I enjoyed doing such marvelous things that makes me feel so alive. And yet what made me stop?

Health? Lack of pace? No.
The simple answer is just money.
Or the lack of it to be utterly precise.

The people are chanting "glocal recession" as I speak. I beg to differ by asking, was it better before this even? Was this crisis a sudden hit or was this just a taste of what was building up?
Take a good look around before one complains that he has lost his job under the recent lay-offs. Look at the beggar that has always been around the corner of your neighbourhood for years. You have 4 digit earning wage and it's never enough? Think of the guy who earns mere hundreds a month, while feeding an entire family. I quote, "I complained that I had no shoes, until I met a man that had no feet".

I do not blame the world that I no longer earn as much as I do in the days. Nor do I hate the fact that I no longer do the things I did. In fact, because of the things I no longer do that I have came to appreciate the things that I'm able(still) to do now. And cherish the people that are still around me even at such times. One can only see so clearly when he has lost something. Or be blinded by it.

Let you decide.